Name's Courtney, but most of you know me as Lanuria.
Happily married to the love of my life, Taylor, who I met on World of Warcraft in 2008.
I roleplay on SWTOR (Ebon Hawk);
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Obisen Kindrak Geviana Tolan Feel free to say HI to me if you see me on. I'm always down for some RP.
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This tumblr is full of personal crap, Star Wars, Jedi emotions, incoherent screaming with my braintwin, other fandom stuff I like, lizards and bickering with my husband even though he's usually three feet away from me. I don't always tag stuff and trigger warnings aren't really my thing, but I'll try. Depends on the day.
You know what you should do? You should go an appointment with a mental health professional. Or ask your parents/legal guardians to make one for you. Or someone you trust.
This kind of thinking, this behavior, scares the fuck out of me. This whole side of tumblr scares the shit out of me. Fictives? A google search of the word brings up a tumblr tagged list and other tumblr pages. There are no medical documentations, no research. It is a made up word.
And these voices, the people living inside these ‘fictives’, are all FICTIONAL CHARACTERS FROM TV SHOWS/VIDEO GAMES/MOVIES ETC. YOU DID NOT MAKE THEM UP. This isn’t even Dissociative Identity Disorder. This is something that isn’t normal even for this mental illness.
I mean, it’s fine if you enjoy those things. I do a lot of RP, I only focus on one RP character at a time, but Obisen isn’t IN MY HEAD TALKING TO ME. Sure, sometimes I’ll see something or hear something and go “Oh, Obisen would think that is funny.” or something, but it’s a passing thought. My Imperial Agent isn’t running about my head being all OCD and freaking out over things.
If you HONESTLY believe there are other people inside your head, YOU NEED TO GET HELP. Those voices can lead you TO HARM YOURSELF OR OTHERS. THEY CAN RUIN YOUR LIFE. Even if these voices are funny, charming, witty fictional characters from animes and Doctor Who, they should. not. be. there. It is not normal or healthy for there to be more than one voice in your head.
Stop fuckin’ telling these kids that them imagining The Doctor or Pinkie Pie or whatever the fuck Homestruck are living inside their head is normal and they should be doing all sorts of shit to make their ‘headmates’ feel welcomed. No. Fuck this ‘Everyone is unique and special’ bullshit. These people need help because this kind of behavior could be the start of something EXTREMELY DANGEROUS.
And I know some people find their mental disorders make them who they are. I am bipolar and it has made me who I am and I would not want to take that way, but I also don’t want to see someone suffer with it without the proper medications and therapy. Because your mental disorder should never be THE ONLY THING THAT DEFINES YOU AS A PERSON.